To most, Father's Day is a fun day spending time as a family. For a family that has lost a baby, it's a very overwhelming day. A day with many emotions, but ya know, you're a guy and society tells us that you can't show your emotions. Having to watch my husband put on a brave face for the day, knowing the hurt he was feeling inside was painful. Knowing there was nothing I could do or say that was going to make him feel whole. I planned a kayaking trip for him, as that was something we talked about doing with Eloise. We wanted to keep the day about him and his little girl. And for the most part, we were able to have a good time. There were still moments of great grief that were hard to get through. Especially when you're not recognized as being a father. The following is for my husband, my best friend, and most importantly the guy who saved my life. Without him, I wouldn't be here today.
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To my Hero of a Husband-
I'm sorry Eloise couldn't be with us. I would do absolutely anything to change that.
I'm sorry that your fatherhood wasn't acknowledged by most. I hope you always remember that you are a father, and a damn good one at that!
I'm sorry that people put my needs and grief ahead of yours. You also lost a beautiful girl and deserve to have your needs tended to.
I'm sorry that the Cav's had to play on Father's Day and you not get to share the joy of winning a championship with her. I know how badly you wanted Ellie to experience this with you.
You are the greatest man I have ever met, and the most loving daddy to our baby girl.
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