Six months ago today, we said hello and goodbye to our daughter. Six months ago, something I never thought would happen, did. Six months ago, I almost died along with Eloise. Someday's, I wish I would have. Because living this new life is a daily torture of wondering how my life would be different with Ellie. Every single day, I'm faced with moments of "what would our life with Ellie look like right now"
When I come home and the dogs are going crazy because we have been at work all day, would they still be focused on me being home, or would they be all over Ellie? What cute face would she make when her daddy got home? Would she have her daddy wrapped around her finger like I suspected he would be?
What would Eloise look like today? Would her hair be growing long and fast? Would her eyes be blue like mine or would they have changed to hazel like her daddy's?
What would our night time routine look like? Would she enjoy bath time? Would she be a good sleeper like I was? Or never sleep like my sister?
Would we be buying her a playground? Who's house would we put it at? We have a small back yard, would it fit? Maybe putting it at my parents house would be better?
Would we be getting a city pool pass to take her swimming this summer? Would she be a little fish like her daddy? Lord knows her big ol feet were great for swimming!
Celebrating her half birthday today was both nice and incredibly hard. Most of the morning I spent crying. Mom picked me up to go out to lunch with my grandparents, and go shopping for Joel's birthday (which turned in to shopping for us and Ellie). Then for dinner we went to the Melting Pot because I know my girl would have had my sweet tooth! We originally planned on going to see Disney's Zootopia after dinner but dinner took too long. It was so nice to have a relaxing dinner after how stressful the last two weeks have been. Tomorrow will be just fine for our movie <3
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